I think the worst part about today was reminiscing about how things used to be with you. It hurts comparing things from the past to how shitty everything is today. In that back of my mind I knew these next few day would eventually come, I really tried my best to prevent it from happening. But it’s actually almost here and it just sucks. Everyone has been telling me things will get better and work in the end but the way I see it, nothing will be fucking better. Either way I’m going to be down on myself just like how I have been for the past months. No one can really understand this situation I’m in and how much it’s been killing me. But what’s new.